The Not Knowing

How to keep moving when the path isn't clear

The start of the year is always an interesting time for me.

There’s something about the rhythm of time. Years are such a neat planning tool. A chance to imagine what this next bit might look like.

For me, time kind of stands still over the school holidays, when my kiddos are front and centre. They’ve finally gone back to school after two months of summer holidays, and this week for the first time in 2026 I’ve found myself trying to get a sense of what feels right to give my time and attention to.

And honestly the older I get, the more I’m starting to sense there isn’t a right answer. There’s just a choice and then learning from that choice.

I’ve been obsessed most of my life with trying to get it right. And for me “right” has often looked like don’t waste time, don’t waste money. Like the absolute worst thing in the world is wasting time and money.

So basically, time and money have been calling the shots.

And after living like this for so long, I’ve come to realise I’ve missed out on so much of what’s on offer in life because of it.

On Tuesday morning, my first kid free day in two months, I sat down and I knew I had to find a way to start making decisions again. To start moving towards something.

I’m extremely action oriented. I find safety in doing. And I’m genuinely grateful for that energy. Everything I’ve built has come from that drive.

But this year I want it to be different.

I want my actions to be conscious and mindful, not driven by fear.

One thing I’ve learned leading for the past 20 years is that so much of leadership is making decisions and then committing to them long enough to learn something.

And lately, as I get older, I’ve noticed myself wavering when the path isn’t clear. That’s the place you can stagnate, not because you’re lazy, but because you’re waiting for certainty that never arrives.

I’ve been in a season of pause for the past three months. And I can feel it. It’s time to start moving again.

But how do you do that when the path isn’t clear?

I’m not exactly sure where it came from, but on Tuesday morning an idea emerged. Create a framework for how I make decisions in this new energy.

Five key beliefs I’m choosing to hold this year.

And my gosh writing them down and testing next step ideas against them has been an incredible process. It’s given me such a strong sense of safety within myself.

I literally wrote them out on post it notes and stuck them on my computer screen.

If they’re hard to read, they say 💛

Love wins
Keep contributing
I have time
I have resources
From ME to WE

If you’re out there needing to make decisions and not knowing where to start, I’m sharing this in the hope that this process might be helpful.

And then this morning, an Eckhart Tolle quote popped up in my feed and it felt like a little nod of affirmation as I sit in the not knowing and practise moving beyond the thinking mind.

I’m looking forward to continuing to share 2026 and all that is becoming with you.

Sam xx